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甚麼都可以丟棄的，丟棄傢俬玩具衣服化妝品，丟棄浮華，丟棄恐懼，丟棄自己的名字，丟棄感受痛苦的能力，丟棄感受愛的知覺，丟棄一些人，可是記憶就像暴雨後垃圾湧現的海岸，終於有一天我會在佈滿垃圾的海邊搜索被我魯莽丟掉卻是最珍貴的東西。
那一天就是今天。

佈滿垃圾的海找到一句零碎的歌詞
Slow down, let someone love you
David Bowie - Win

Everything can be discarded, furniture, toys, clothes, cosmetics. Discard the extravagance, discard fear, discard your own name, discard the ability to feel pain, discard the perception of love, discard some people. But memories are like the coastline flooded with garbage after a storm. Eventually, one day, I will search for the most precious thing that I foolishly threw away on the littered beach.

And that day is today.

On the garbage-filled sea, I found a fragment of lyrics:

"Slow down, let someone love you."

David Bowie - Win

這個世界最快樂的事，遇見那麼多人，遇見另一個軀殼裡的我，第一眼我就知道你明白我。

你明白我身上的傷。

The happiest thing in the world is meeting so many people and meeting me in another body. I know you understand me at the first sight.

You understand my wounds.

我有你身上的碎片

I have your fragments

我找到自己，也會找到你

I found myself, and I will find you too

晚安，今晚再見

Goodnight, see you again tonight

想起來你在我生命中出現或者是一個給我學習愛的機會，當你從我的日常生活中消失，腦袋會麻木眼淚會流，把我在被失落感籠罩中再擠壓多一點而讓我從中逃脫。從瓶頸位走出來帶着蘊藏的能量繼續創作。

由春天到秋天，相隔一個陌生的夏季，第二次面對離別，這次我有經驗，麻木悲傷有它的過程節奏，讓時間柔和地梳理情緒，只要等待時間一過，就好了。

沉默也是一個方法回應失落，活着的人就繼續相信愛吧

Remembering that you appeared in my life, perhaps as an opportunity for me to learn to love. When you vanished from my everyday life, my mind went numb and tears flowed. I squeezed a little more in the midst of enveloping disappointment and allowed myself to escape from it. Emerging from the bottleneck with stored energy, I continue to create.

From spring to autumn, with an unfamiliar summer in between, facing separation for the second time. This time, I have experience. Numbness and sadness have their own process and rhythm, allowing time to gently sort out emotions. As long as I wait for time to pass, it will be alright.

Silence is also a way to respond to loss. Those who are still alive continue to believe in love.

喜歡的不一定在一起
其他的卻亂纏一堆
在這個不安的時代
只想深深擁抱

Those you like may not be together

Others are in a mess

in this uneasy era

All I want is a deep embrace

一個深秋的夜晚，颳起一陣一陣爆裂心靈的季候風，翻起一層又一層的夢境，一個接一個的劇情像潮水翻過來又退回去，捲起很多回憶忘掉了的往事。
一夜之間遇見很多似乎是認識的人，從夢境張開眼睛，風停了，我明白了所有的都只是體驗。

On a late autumn night, a gust of seasonal wind blew, rupturing the soul. It stirred up layer after layer of dreams, with one plot after another rolling like the tide, unearthing forgotten memories.

In the span of one night, I encountered many seemingly familiar faces. As I opened my eyes from the dream, the wind ceased, and I understood that everything was merely an experience.

待續 to be continued…